It was three days after another New York bombing
and the first time
you didn’t kiss me goodbye. Give wishes
for a safe flight, and to me it was clear—
if it weren’t for the others, you’d will
that plane to crash from pregnant clouds.
how tidy, how perfect it would all be. Nobody
would know the coldness of the morning, how
you refused to even pretend
to hear me. How it was your mother
I touched last. Who would know
how much I drank at the airport bar,
that I worried the weight
I’d put on would be too much
for a plane to bear? No one.
You could slip on the victim’s
jacket, wear it real sharp and I,
I would die with a fall, full of grace
I never cocktailed up in life. I like to think
the descent would be smooth
as your skin and slow, so slow. Reluctant
as our restless beginnings.